Doing something for your loved one

I always deny that I'm gonna do what people expect from me. I just refuse.What I think as best for me was always this: 'You want me to do that, I need something in return'.  I can do what you want. I can be a loser for you. I can, but I don't want because I'm gonna be awful after that.

But I'm doing this for you. Not for myself. You,  I've experienced something that would be something that horrible. And I'm not gonna tell anybody about this. This is secret. I should do that. But not for myself and not sincere. Its because of you asking that thing for me.

And maybe people should forget about me.

I'm tired.
Good night.