Which path to choose?

Job hunting is very stressful. Rasa macam kenak bulak jak. Ari ya beriya-iya mengatakan kompom dapat. T_T (mena2 nangis)

Try to do something better. Hmm, kali dikpun yang sik bagus. So sekda sapa mok ambik ko kerja. Maybe resume ku sik menarik. Ya kali.

But then, I just can't forget their voices. I put too much hopes on that job maybe. Well, apakah kesilapan aku ari ya? Aku mena2 frust sebab, a single reply pun sekda. They said within 2 weeks AKAN ADA reply. But, dah masok 3 bulan tiada balasan. Oih, pedihnya pedihnya pedihnya. :'(

I need to move on but I just can't quit this job macam ya ajak. Looks like irresponsible person jak. I need to help this kakak with her business first. And whatever it is. Aku dah sekda semangat gik mok kerja ngan kakak tok. Why? Gaji dikira part time, bila sik bekerja I earn nothing. NOTHING! Kerja sehari pun sikit sik berbaloi dengan jam bekerja 13 hours sehari. Sakit la jiwa macam tok. But what can I do? I am totally stuck coz, di Kuching aku cacat mun gik harap kerja-kerja jaga kedai. No, I can't. Tapi diam sitok pun earn RM3000 per month apa ko pike cukup? Nope~ Kirim salam jak ngan gaji RM3000 di KL. Mun Kuching boleh gik. Adoiyai. Tok namanya ngerepak.

I have a lot of dreams. Hmm, if you want to talk about dreams. Everybody have dreams but they strive for that. Adakah aku kurang struggle untuk mengejar dreams aku? OK, ini salah aku. Sekian. Aku. Confuse.